During the last week November, leading into the first week of December brought a miracle into my life.
A bit of back story before the miracle. Around March of earlier this year, I started suffering large amounts of pain in my abdominal area, largely my stomach. I thought nothing of it initially, however, I found that it was very noticeable when I ate.
My mother and sister suggested that maybe I try a gluten-free diet. I was not excited to say the least, many of my thoughts led to "I would rather shoot myself," to "I can't do this."
I attempted to do the diet, and while it seemed that it was working initially, I found that I was still suffering quite a bit of pain, no matter how strictly I followed the diet.
My summer was filled with a lack of annoyance because I felt that I couldn't eat anything, and anyone who knows me knows that I love to eat.
During this now finishing semester of school, a close friend and also my mother noticed my stress and anxiety peaking as I struggled with this, and not just this, but issues of self-worth. My stomach pains grew as did my desire to find answers.
Surprisingly, I worked first towards resolving issues of self-worth and also worked on building my spirit. As I did, I am sure I caused worry and concern for those that are close to me.
As those issues were cleared, my stomach pain, while still there, decreased. Then, the miracle happened. I finally went to a doctor, but not only did I ask for help with my stomach pains, I followed the council of those close to me and God, talk about your past stress and anxiety issues. The young man who listened to me said that it appeared that the two seemed to be tied together, and prescribed me a medicine that would focus largely on my anxiety, with a hope that maybe, just maybe it would also still my stomach.
After a week or so of taking the medicine, I noticed that my thoughts cleared, and many fears dissipated. Not only that, but my stomach pains only became apparent during moments of great stress.
This December miracle became affirmative and I found myself capable to be me, and not only that, but also be a better me. As I came to the conclusion of my 22nd year, I was given a blessing. I was able to enjoy the gifts people have me, and their company as well, without stress, anxiety, or pain.
My thanks go out to those that prayed for me, that stayed with me patiently, oh so patiently.
As this time of year is usually that of giving and receiving, I quote one scripture that to me seems apparent: "Peace be unto thy soul; thine adversity and thine afflictions shall be but a small moment;
And then, if thou endure it well, God shall exalt thee on high; thou shalt triumph over all thy foes. Thy friends do stand by thee, and they shall hail thee again with warm hearts and friendly hands." (D&C 121:7-9)
I thank everyone for giving my their time, their kindness, and I hope that I received it well, and during this time, I hope that I can give to you just the same.